I am thinking...

...that maybe I should delete this blog. There is just so much pain here and I didn't start out thinking that this is what it would be. No one can predict what is going to happen, I didn't predict this. I apologize for making those of you who read this deal with this over and over. I remember when I lived in NM and they shot a bear out of tree with a tranquilizer and it fell and hit electrical lines. I watched that bear fall over and over and over and I thought why do they keep showing this? I don't want to see this anymore! I imagine you feeling the same way.