And I'm not sure how I feel about that. I feel like the feelings have faded and then I feel guilty because I don't want anyone to forget you. This is all so new to me, and so awful. Thanks Benj, for being the one to make me do this.
I wish you were a baby again and I could hug you and kiss you and you were so cute and snuggly. You were so cute, with your bravery and your curly hair and big smile.
I just want you to know I miss you, every day. There are a thousand things I want to say to you. But mostly that I love you. I always have. I always will.